Monday, January 24, 2011

Unity

How good, how delightful it is
for all to live together like brothers:
fine as oil on the head,

running down the beard,
running down Aaron's beard
to the collar of his robes;
copious as a Hermon dew
falling on the heights of Zion,
where Yahweh confers His blessing,
everlasting life.
Psalm 133 Jerusalem Bible

My prayer is not for them alone. I pray also for those who will believe in me through their message, that all of them may be one, Father, just as you are in me and I am in you. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that you have sent me. I have given them the glory that you gave me, that they may be one as we are one: I in them and you in me. May they be brought to complete unity to let the world know that you sent me and have loved them even as you have loved me.
John 21:20-23 NIV

How people strive for unity, how much they desire it, but they stop as soon as they think they have reached it, and it is still terribly far from the unity that Christ prayed for us to have.

The unity that comes from above is the gift of the Spirit of God, not in some magical fashion that does not ask anything of us, but as a gift that can be received only by those who give themselves to it.

Unity is a gift that draws us in, all that we are and have. Unity is a gift that we receive only when we become the gift.

When we possess this unity, it possesses us. We no longer seek ourselves, but always the other. We are all of one mind and of one will, while remaining distinct persons, and we begin to understand the Holy Triad, not by thinking, but by living.

This unity, once experienced, even between only two persons, proves every word of the Gospels and of the whole of sacred scripture to be entirely true.

Dying and reviving gods

The theme of death and resurrection is a common one in the religions of mankind, starting from the earliest ages. The Egyptian Osiris, the Akkadian Tammuz, the Greek Adonis, and yes, according to Wikipedia, the Christian Jesus. All of these are listed, and many more, under headings of mythology, yes, even under Christian mythology. You can’t blame Wikipedia; they have to stay objective.

What all of these deities, except Jesus, have in common is that they are all in some special way related to the annual cycles of vegetation. Even the Canaanite god Baal is a dying and reviving god. Fraser’s The Golden Bough has taken us on an imaginative, guided tour of many of these deities, and C. S. Lewis has easily debunked the lumping of Jesus into this group of vegetation myths in his writings, and I have nothing to add to either of these.

What I have been thinking of is the effect of these dying and reviving gods on their worshippers. We have little to go on except the historical record of some of their rites, but not much on what, if any, was the moral effect they had. This is where, I think, there is a big difference between Jesus Christ, the only historical figure known to have been executed and resurrected, and all these other gods.

The resurrection of Jesus Christ, even if the world does not accept its reality, has an effect on His followers that is consistent and can be documented from the earliest times until now. In fact, one does not have to be a scholar to research this effect: it is open to anyone who dares to follow Jesus, not just study Him.

Everyone who has followed Jesus has had this experience: There is always something in them which they cannot at any cost keep and still follow Jesus. For some it is a specific experience they desire, something they want to be, or have or do, which they cannot be, have or do and still, in good conscience, claim to follow the Master. Why is this?

Because Jesus is the Word of God, the only Teacher of mankind, and there is a book, the Holy Bible, the only divinely revealed scriptures ever given to humanity, which claims to be the written image of Who He is. Jesus said to His disciples, “If you have seen Me, you have seen the Father.” Christians have something from Jesus that the devotees of the dying and reviving gods did not have, divinely revealed scriptures, the Hebrew Old Testament, and the Greek New. These two scriptures mean endless trouble for those who want to keep living in the ordinary human way and still try to please God. In fact, they say it’s impossible.

And so, that’s the predicament we find ourselves in, with Jesus.
This is why the only true dying and reviving deity is paradoxically called the Living One, the one who was dead but is alive, while His remedy for His disciples’ dis-ease is, in fact, Death.

Though He was Himself God, He humbled Himself, hiding His glory (as do many of the pagan gods in the myths when they come down to man), assumed the condition of a slave (this none of the pagan gods was able to do), and became as all men are, experiencing with us and for us all that it means to be a human being, including physical death. Somehow, His work for us has achieved what man could not do on his own: He reopened for us the gates of Paradise, and gave us access to the Tree of Life which, it turns out, was the very Tree on which He was suspended between heaven and earth.

But back to us, we cannot have things the way we want and still follow Him on the path He led the repentant thief, the path to Paradise.

Religion would make rules for us, forbidding this and that, and give us methods of self-denial that, if followed religiously, would somehow make us worthy of the Garden, but the makers of religion hide from us and from themselves the certain truth of Christ’s own words, that if we want to live, we must die. Back we are to acknowledging that there are some things we cannot take with us when we follow Jesus into Life, and among those things there will always be at least one that we know we cannot live without. Hence, we must die.

Dying and reviving gods, before Jesus, there were none in reality: all were but myths, mankind’s dreaming of heaven.

Dying and reviving gods, after Jesus, literally following Jesus, there have been, are and will be many: these are they who, laying down their lives for love of Him, follow the Lamb wherever He goes and, like Him, dying they live forever.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

What matters

It cannot be assumed that a man will constantly see or feel the light or warmth of God. Yet both are constant and active, both in the light of this life as well as in its darkness, its coldness as well as its warmth, its happiness as well as its grief.

The way of the spirit is not to be measured exclusively by periods of light, warmth, joy, or fruitful activity.

Periods of impasse, of darkness engulfing the soul, of grief which oppresses the heart, periods of coldness paralyzing all spiritual emotion are inseparable parts of the narrow spiritual way.

Such conditions seem adverse, painful, and deadly.
What matters is how we face them.

This is what determines our worthiness to proceed further, completing the blessed struggle until we receive our crowns.


“Remember who your teachers were…”
2 Timothy 3:14

Nothing would be impossible

It’s no wonder that the world does not follow the teachings of the Church. Except for when the world is masquerading as the Church for its own reasons, it is happy to ignore what the Church has to say at best, and at worst, it likes to entertain itself by mocking it.

The Church, however, has no teachings, even when it says it does because it’s full of its own authority, and it’s that false authority that the world loves to mock. The world incites the Church to claim an authority it does not have, so that the world can mock it,
‘See, you’re no better than us!’

The Church has no teachings and no authority of its own: it has only what Christ has given it, what Christ has handed over to it, as a steward receives from his Lord what is not his, but what is entrusted to him. What has been entrusted to the Church is teachings and authority, from Christ the Only Teacher of mankind, the Only Authority, of whom God the Father says,
‘You are My Son’
(Psalm 2:7).

There is a difference between the perceived truth and the actual truth which even members and leaders of the Church sometimes fail to discern. Discernment, διακρισις, dhiákrisis, is here the key word. So often what the Church has is not discernment, but judgment, κρισις, krísis. When the Church exercises the former, the world fears and respects her, when the latter, she is made a laughingstock.

So, someone has declared today, this Lord’s Day, as national ‘Sanctity of Human Life Sunday.’ SOHLS is held on the Sunday in January that falls closest to the day on which the Roe v. Wade and Doe v. Bolton decisions were handed down by the U.S. Supreme Court—January 22, 1973, in short, the date abortion was legalized in the United States. Over the past 38 years, 51 million lives have been taken through abortion. For some, this data is hard to take in, and they ask, ‘How long will God forbear with our generation?’

Declarations are human things, the works of those who take on their shoulders the mantle of the King of kings of kings, relying on His promises to be with them, but as rulers not as servants. The world knows when we are playing the game that it plays, even when we are dressed up in that robe.

Only Christ can wear that robe, and when He reigns from the tree, He has already taken it off, and reigns naked, not only mocked but also rejected by the world which does not know what it is doing, does not know what He has accomplished from that throne of suffering, on which as King of Glory, He reigns.

Reigns, not rules. Discerns, not judges.

There is a Kingdom that, as Christ says, is not of this world. That Kingdom in time has no rights, no power, not even the power to save from death. Christ says, ‘Do you think that I cannot appeal to My Father who would promptly send more than twelve legions of angels to My defense?’ (Matthew 26:53).

The scourge and crime of abortion is to be opposed, to be sure, but how? With what weapon that the world cannot turn against us, or that we will not snap in two on a rock? The world brings its epileptic son to the disciples for healing, and they cannot heal him. Yet Jesus shrives the boy with a word.

‘Faithless and perverse generation! How much longer must I be with you? How much longer must I put up with you? Bring him here to Me!’ (Matthew 17:17) Christ is speaking not only to the wounded and demon-infested world, but to the disciples as well, who come to Him privately and ask,

‘Why were we unable to cast it out?’ He answered, ‘Because you have little faith. I tell you solemnly, if your faith were the size of a mustard seed you could say to this mountain, “Move from here to there,” and it would move; nothing would be impossible to you’ (Matthew 17:20).

And some manuscripts add, ‘As for this kind [of devil], it is cast out only by prayer and fasting.’

Friday, January 21, 2011

Mistaking

When meeting a guest at the airport whom you have never seen before and who has never seen you, you stand outside the arrival gate and hold up a sign with their name written on it. If all goes well, they will see you holding up their name and come right to you.
There will be no mistaking.

I wish it were this easy
to meet the greatest of all unforeseen guests,
God.

Could we stand, waiting patiently for Him, holding up a writing of His name for Him to recognize us? And if we could, how long could we stand? For most of us it would seem He is the Guest who never arrives. Like one who must stay up very late at night to view a lunar eclipse, we get tired and cranky, and then, disgusted with ourselves, we just go back to bed. I speak from experience.

Waiting is something few have patience for.
Waiting for God, even fewer.

The writer of the Wisdom of Solomon describes the natural man’s search for God, in which there is mistaking creatures for the Creator.

Yes, naturally stupid are all men who have not known God
and who, from the good things that are seen,
have not been able to discover Him-Who-Is,
or, by studying the works,
have failed to recognize the Artificer.
Fire, however, or wind, or the swift air,
the sphere of the stars,
impetuous water, heaven's lamps,
are what they have held to be the gods
who govern the world.

If, charmed by their beauty,
they have taken things for gods,
let them know how much the Lord of these excels them,
since the very Author of beauty has created them.
And if they have been impressed
by their power and energy,
let them deduce from these
how much mightier is He that has formed them,
since through the grandeur and beauty of the creatures
we may, by analogy, contemplate their Author.
Small blame, however, attaches to these men,
for perhaps they only go astray
in their search for God and their eagerness to find Him;
living among His works,
they strive to comprehend them
and fall victim to appearances, seeing so much beauty.
Wisdom 12:1-7 Jerusalem Bible

‘…fall victim to appearances, seeing so much beauty.’

Lord our God,
prevent us, we beg You, of falling victim to appearances,
of mistaking for You those things which our hands have made,
our hearts have loved, or our minds have thought.
Give us the eye of faith by which to see You,
and blind us to all other things
that resemble You.
Grant us, merciful and loving Lord,
Your forgiveness for our idolatry,
our idealism, ideology, ideas
that we forge to hold You
Who are uncontainable
except by suffering.
Save us, O Lord,
from ourselves
without You.
Be with us,
we cry.

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Le Mémorial de Pascal

“Remember who your teachers were…”
2 Timothy 3:14

Blaise Pascal (1623-1662), known in his day and ours as a mathematician and scientist, was also a spiritual writer. His Provincial Letters (1656-1657) defended his Jansenist friends at Port-Royal against their Jesuit critics. His Pensées, never finished, and published posthumously in 1670, present Pascal's apologia for the Christian faith, addressed to the intelligent skeptic. This work includes his famous "wager" regarding the existence of God.

Pascal's most intimate religious work is the Memorial. This scrap of paper, which in his own hand writing records Pascal's experience on one unforgettable night in 1654, was found in the lining of his coat after his death, for he carried this reminder about with him always. Here I present the French and Latin original of the Memorial, followed by an English translation.

L'an de grâce 1654,

Lundi, 23 novembre, jour de saint Clément, pape et martyr, et autres au martyrologe.
Veille de saint Chrysogone, martyr, et autres,
Depuis environ dix heures et demie du soir jusques environ minuit
et demi,
FEU.

« DIEU d'Abraham, DIEU d'Isaac, DIEU de Jacob »
non des philosophes et des savants.
Certitude. Certitude. Sentiment. Joie. Paix.
DIEU de Jésus-Christ.
Deum meum et Deum vestrum.
« Ton DIEU sera mon Dieu. »
Oubli du monde et de tout, hormis DIEU.
Il ne se trouve que par les voies enseignées dans l'Évangile.
Grandeur de l'âme humaine.
« Père juste, le monde ne t'a point connu, mais je t'ai connu. »
Joie, joie, joie, pleurs de joie.
Je m'en suis séparé:
Dereliquerunt me fontem aquae vivae.
« Mon Dieu, me quitterez-vous ? »
Que je n'en sois pas séparé éternellement.
« Cette est la vie éternelle, qu'ils te connaissent seul vrai Dieu,
et celui que tu as envoyé, Jésus-Christ. »
Jésus-Christ.
Jésus-Christ.
Je m'en suis séparé; je l'ai fui, renoncé, crucifié.
Que je n'en sois jamais séparé.
Il ne se conserve que par les voies enseignées dans l'Évangile:
Renonciation totale et douce.
Soumission totale à Jésus-Christ et à mon directeur.
Éternellement en joie pour un jour d'exercice sur la terre.
Non obliviscar sermones tuos. Amen.

The year of grace 1654,

Monday, 23 November, feast of St. Clement, pope and martyr,
and others in the martyrology.
Vigil of St. Chrysogonus, martyr, and others.
From about half past ten at night until about half past midnight,

FIRE.

GOD of Abraham, GOD of Isaac, GOD of Jacob
not of the philosophers and of the learned.
Certitude. Certitude. Feeling. Joy. Peace.
GOD of Jesus Christ.
My God and your God.
Your GOD will be my God.
Forgetfulness of the world and of everything, except GOD.
He is only found by the ways taught in the Gospel.
Grandeur of the human soul.
Righteous Father, the world has not known you, but I have known you.
Joy, joy, joy, tears of joy.
I have departed from him:
They have forsaken me, the fount of living water.
My God, will you leave me?
Let me not be separated from him forever.
This is eternal life, that they know you, the one true God,
and the one that you sent, Jesus Christ.
Jesus Christ.
Jesus Christ.
I left him; I fled him, renounced, crucified.
Let me never be separated from him.
He is only kept securely by the ways taught in the Gospel:
Renunciation, total and sweet.
Complete submission to Jesus Christ and to my director.
Eternally in joy for a day's exercise on the earth.
May I not forget your words. Amen.

This is my 39th post for the month of January: Blaise Pascal lived for only thirty-nine years. May his memory be eternal.

Enemies for our sake

Looking at a Jewish blog or two, I always come away with the feeling that these people are just so Jewish, it’s as if they don’t know that the rest of the world exists—and for them, maybe it just doesn’t! There’s just so much going on inside of Judaism today.

If I could only let Jesus go, even a schmuck like me could join them. But that’s the rub—as all of us bible-loving, torah-hugging, evangelion-kissing followers of Y’shuah ha-Mashiach know—we’ll never really be their kind of Jews until we get rid of ‘that Jew’.
And I just can’t do that.


It also really amazes me how Jewish blogs, indeed, Jewish culture, ignores Jesus. It’s as though He never existed, and I suppose, it’s because they wish He hadn’t.

What an embarrassment! One of your own people turns up and starts challenging everything you took for granted, lures away some of the brethren into following Him, and even when somehow the Guy gets killed (did we have anything to do with it?), that doesn’t seem to stop Him. He’s brainwashed those followers of His into coming up with some tom-fool story of Him rising from the dead! And to top it off, they start finding verses in the Tanakh to support their stupid claims!

Well, how else do you expect the Jews to behave? When they’re alone with themselves, as on their blogs, at forums, or in their private lives together, what else should matter? They’re God’s chosen people.

I can’t help loving them. I wish I had been born a Jew because I feel like one through and through. It comforts me to be among them, to stand and sway in one of their synagogue services. I wish my hair was dark and my beard and sideburns luxuriant. My family name is a Jewish one in our ancestral country, but that doesn’t mean a thing. I am a Polack and no matter how far back I trace my family, we were Christians, Catholics until I came along. I was a blondy as a little boy, and now I’m a whity.

Why do I love the Jews? Well, I can’t escape the reality that Jesus Christ, the God-man, is a Jew. What? He was a Jew, that’s true, but He isn’t one now! Is that so? I have a funny dream, that when He returns He’s going to look around and ask, ‘Where’s my brothers?’ and I don’t mean Pope Benny and Patriarch Bart. Yes, I really do believe that Jesus Christ is a Jew, and I believe that His virgin mother, His brethren, most of the holy apostles, and lots of other people He loves are Jews, including Israel His people.

There’s a blog on the internet of a friend of mine who is also an Orthodox Christian, but he is incredibly anti-Jewish, and he blogs about his opinions and researches enthusiastically. Of course, now that he knows that I am a Jew-loving Christian, I am no longer subject to his friendship, but that’s alright with me. As Elder Epiphanios says, ‘I don’t hold onto anyone. I don’t chase anyone away. Whoever wants comes, whoever wants stays, whoever wants leaves.’ No matter what people think of me, I welcome them all the same.

But back to these people, the Jews, they never cease to amaze me. What incredible chutzpah they have! It’s got to come from somewhere. As an old college prof commented to a colleague in the film Chariots of Fire, when Harold Abrahams, a Jewish student, wins a race, ‘Maybe they’re God’s chosen people after all.’ I have to agree with him. They’re God’s chosen people, and Jesus of Nazareth is one of them, and in Him all the promises made to the patriarchs are fulfilled. But where does that leave them?

The Jews of today, and all those who’ve lived since the time of Christ, during what’s cleverly been called C.E. (Common Era) times, what of them? They haven’t accepted Jesus bar Joseph of Nazareth as the Messiah. How could they? He doesn’t fit the description they’ve come up with by studying their scriptures. Ah yes, but Christ Himself says to them, ‘You study the Scriptures diligently because you think that in them you have eternal life. These are the very Scriptures that testify about me, yet you refuse to come to me to have life’ (John 5:39-40). If I was standing there when He first said this, wouldn’t I be just as confused as they were? Jesus is altogether new, and all I’ve ever known is old.

Brothers, forgive this pointless ramble, but consider the mystery of Israel, God’s ‘hereditary people’ as they are called in the Psalms. Yes, I know they wrote the psalms, so what do you expect? But we also share the Holy Scriptures with them, the bulk of them we share. Our thin volume of gospels and epistles could be tucked inside the Tanakh without it even showing. Their people taught us, and we are learning from them still. They are the unthanked nursemaids of our spiritual infancy.

Remember the words of holy apostle Paul, ‘servant of the mystery’:

I do not want you to be ignorant of this mystery, brothers and sisters, so that you may not be conceited: Israel has experienced a hardening in part until the full number of the Gentiles has come in, and in this way all Israel will be saved. As it is written: “The deliverer will come from Zion; he will turn godlessness away from Jacob. And this is my covenant with them when I take away their sins.”

As far as the gospel is concerned, they are enemies for your sake; but as far as election is concerned, they are loved on account of the patriarchs, for God’s gifts and his call are irrevocable. Just as you who were at one time disobedient to God have now received mercy as a result of their disobedience, so they too have now become disobedient in order that they too may now receive mercy as a result of God’s mercy to you. For God has bound everyone over to disobedience so that he may have mercy on them all.
Romans 11:25-32

Our Father

πατερ ημων ο εν τοις ουρανοις
αγιασθητω το ονομα σου
ελθετω η βασιλεια σου
γενηθητω το θελημα σου
ως εν ουρανω και επι της γης
τον αρτον ημων τον επιουσιον δος ημιν σημερον
και αφες ημιν τα οφειληματα ημων
ως και ημεις αφιεμεν τοις οφειλεταις ημων
και μη εισενεγκης ημας εις πειρασμον
αλλα ρυσαι ημας απο του πονηρου
οτι σου εστιν η βασιλεια
και η δυναμις και η δοξα
εις τους αιωνας αμην

Our Father which art in heaven,
Hallowed be thy name.
Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done
in earth, as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread.
And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors.
And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil:
For thine is the kingdom, and the power,
and the glory, for ever. Amen.
Matthew 6:9-13

The Lord's prayer is both bottomless and has no lid. Its depth transcends even the deepest pit of our sorrows and humiliations, yet it exceeds the highest of our expectations. It reveals the Father who is there, who is ours, who loves us, who answers us before we ask, who is faithful, in whom we live and move and have our being. Praying it puts us in the shoes of His Son, and when He looks at His Son standing in humble petition before Him, what will He not grant, what will He not supply?

So what is at stake, literally?


Father Stephen, as usual, is miles ahead of me and more pragmatic as well, but thank God, we're on the same road! Here is an excerpt from his latest post Risking Everything. Read his whole post by returning to the linked title. Here's some of what he writes…

It is quite possible for a local church (as in a local parish, though we could be describing the more accurate sense of “local” church and mean the Orthodox Church in America or the Russian Orthodox Church, etc.) to go about what looks like the work of the Church, and in fact not be doing the work of the Church. The sacraments may be present (these are utterly essential aspects of the life of the Church). Fr. Alexander Schmemann is quoted as having said: ‘The Church is not an institution that has mysteries; it is a Mystery that has institutions.’ But it is quite possible to put things the other way around, and instead of serving the salvation of each member, be serving the creation and the fostering of the false self.

Our American way of life has tended to mold the local church into the local religion store. It offers various programs and activities that keep everyone involved and even maximizing the “ministries” of its members. But it can also simply be a beehive of activity, none or little of which has much to do with the healing of the soul.

In every activity of the Church, whether it is liturgical, or educational, or building buildings, what have you, each activity should serve for the healing of the soul and the nurture of the true self. If not, then the Church has simply become one more secular activity that is destroying true life rather than fostering it.

So, what is at stake? Everything.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Facing facts

Most people are not evil, nor are most people complete fools. We are, however, a very selfish race, and ungrateful. Some of us have met with circumstances in our lives that have halted us in our tracks, making us look at and think about the world around us a little more deeply. There is, after all, a lot to ponder. The deeper we live our personal stories, the more we can begin to understand the stories of others, and empathy grows in us.

The human mind seeks patterns in its experience of the world and of the self. There are plenty of patterns out there too, and it seems the more we look for, the more we find. Sometimes we try so hard, we even find patterns that aren’t really there. Hence, the humanist atheist’s criticism of religion and God, which sometimes comes close to the truth. So much for the human world and our experiences there.

Still, some of us, as flawed as we are—and as damaged—insist on the reality of a Being we call God. Most of us are also not evil, nor are we complete fools either. We find ourselves to be, in spite of our belief in the existence of the Being we call God, very selfish and, yes, ungrateful too, just as selfish and ungrateful as the rest of humanity. That doesn’t stop us from believing and insisting that this God exists, whatever else we do or say about Him.

This fact gives the majority of people a very sour taste in their mouths when it comes to the subject of religion and God, or as we have it in America, a ‘Christian country,’ the subject of church. Most people are not evil, nor are most people complete fools. They can tell when people are playing church and, being sensible (except for a universal blindspot—personal sin), they want no part in this game, and can you blame them?

Most people will only play games that they’ve made up and whose rules they’ve accepted, games that are fun, and which they think they can win, that is, that’ll put them ahead of others. Hmm, what does that remind me of?

Back to my statement that most people are not evil, at least they don’t think they are. They haven’t yet encountered sin, or else they’ve refused to acknowledge it, being tutored by a world system that actually glorifies it under other names. So, not meeting sin in themselves, or hiding from it, thus being unaware of the bad news about themselves, they have no ears for the good news. If they have heard the bad news preached at them somewhere, that only hardens their hearts against the good news even more:

‘First they tell me I’m broken, so they can fix me, but if you ask me, it’s them that are broken and need fixing!
They can keep their Jesus!’


I wonder why they would think that?

Can it be true that most people aren’t complete fools? Even if they were able to see their brokenness or whatever they might call it—though sin is its real name—how should they respond if the repairers of the breach are easily seen to be just playing a game, pretending to be healers, helpers, heralds of good news, but in fact, only playing?

‘Where do you fellowship, brother?’ a twinkly-eyed, heavily-bearded middle aged man asks a young man sitting in a coffeehouse, wearing a tallit [Jewish prayer scarf] and studying a Hebrew interlinear Old Testament.

Without waiting for a response he monologs, ‘Tallit is rabbinical; I follow only Torah.’

Then, as the young man begins to respond, and giving some testimony of his life in Christ, the other continues to promote his messianic synagogue and boasts of following the commandments because ‘Y’shua [Jesus] was a Torah observant Jew.’

Then he goes on to say that living your life as a living sacrifice is impossible unless you ‘know and understand the book of Vayikra [Leviticus] and what sacrifice is all about.’

My mind is trailing off into silence and my eyes glazing over, while I wait for this blast of hot wind to pass. Ah, but his wife is a real Jew, who teaches Hebrew, and who was saved and is now a tongue-speaking, born-again believer in Mashiach.

‘Good,’ I mutter softly to myself, and nod while half-listening patiently.

Finally—I knew it was coming—the business card! After all, he’s on his Father’s business. He knows his lines well, though his Hebrew knowledge is spotty at best, enough to corral the biblically illiterate whom he usually meets here.

So why don’t they come to church and be Christians?
What’s wrong with the people of the world?


We’ve certainly given them enough time and plenty of free literature and televangelism to round them up. Don’t they feel welcome?

We say on our church marquees, ‘Everyone welcome.’
Can't they read?

Look, we even have a prayer request box in the parking lot, if somebody needs to be prayed for! What more can they want?
They don’t even have to tithe, at least not at first. After all, ‘the church doesn’t need’ our money, ‘we need to give it.’
As they say, ‘You can't outgive God!’

As for expecting miracles, like living a transformed life, well, don't worry! That’ll gradually happen.

All they have to do is hang out with us, and they’ll be infected with Christianity. It’ll just rub off on them. See, we’ve made the way to God absolutely appealing, fun and easy!

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Today the Uncreated

Ποίημα Σωφρονίου Πατριάρχου Ιεροσολύμων
(Poem of Sophronios, patriarch of Jerusalem)
The full original Greek text is HERE.

Τριάς υπερούσιε, υπεραγαθε, υπέρθεε, παντοδύναμε, παντεπίσκοπε, αόρατε, ακατάληπτε…

Triad beyond all being, beyond all goodness, beyond all godhead,
all-powerful, all-vigilant, invisible, incomprehensible;
Creator of the spiritual beings and rational natures,
innate goodness, unapproachable Light
that enlightens everyone coming into the world,
shine also in me your unworthy servant.

Enlighten the eyes of my mind that I may dare to sing
the praise of your measureless benevolence and power.
May my supplication for the people here present be acceptable,
so that my offences may not prevent the Holy Spirit
from being present here; but permit me now
without condemnation to cry out to you and say,

Master, lover of mankind, beyond all goodness,
Almighty, eternal King:
We glorify you, the Creator and Fashioner of the universe.
We glorify you, only-begotten Son of God,
without father from your Mother, without mother from your Father.
For in the preceding feast we saw you as a babe,
but in the present one we see you full and perfect man,
our God, made manifest as perfect God from perfect God.

For today
the moment of the feast is here for us
and the choir of saints assembles here with us,
and Angels keep festival with mortals.
Today the grace of the Holy Spirit
in the form of a dove dwelt upon the waters.
Today the Sun that never sets has dawned
and the world is made radiant with the light of the Lord.
Today the Moon with its radiant beams
sheds light on the world.
Today the stars formed of light make the inhabited world lovely
with the brightness of their splendour.
Today the clouds rain down from heaven
the shower of justice for mankind.

Today the Uncreated by his own will
accepts the laying on of hands by his own creature.

Today the Prophet and Forerunner draws near,
but stands by with fear seeing God’s condescension towards us.
Today the streams of Jordan are changed into healing
by the presence of the Lord.
Today all creation is watered by mystical streams.
Today the failings of mankind are being washed away
by the waters of Jordan.
Today Paradise is opened for mortals
and the Sun of justice shines down on us.
Today the bitter water as once for Moses’ people
is changed to sweetness by the presence of the Lord.
Today we have been delivered from the ancient grief,
and saved as the new Israel.
Today we have been redeemed from darkness
and are filled with radiance
by the light of the knowledge of God.
Today the gloomy fog of the world is cleansed
by the manifestation of our God.
Today all creation shines with light from on high.
Today error has been destroyed
and the coming of the Master makes for us
a way of salvation.
Today things on high keep festival with those below,
and those below commune with those on high.
Today the sacred and triumphant
festal assembly of the Orthodox exults.
Today the Master hastens towards baptism,
that he may lead humanity to the heights.
Today the One who does not bow
bows down to his own servant,
that he may free us from servitude.
Today we have purchased the Kingdom of heaven,
for the Kingdom of the Lord will have no end.
Today earth and sea share the joy of the world,
and the world has been filled with gladness.

The waters saw you, O God,
the waters saw you and were afraid.
The Jordan turned back
when it saw the fire of the godhead
descending in bodily form and entering it.
The Jordan turned back
as it contemplated the Holy Spirit
in the form of a dove,
descending and flying about you.
The Jordan turned back
as it saw the Invisible made visible,
the Creator made flesh,
the Master in the form of a servant.
The Jordan turned back
and the mountains leapt
as they saw God in the flesh,
and the clouds uttered their voice,
marvelling at what had come to pass,
seeing Light from Light,
true God from true God,
the Master’s festival today in Jordan;
seeing him drowning the death from disobedience,
the goad of error and the bond of Hell in Jordan
and granting the Baptism of salvation to the world.

Therefore I too, a sinner and your unworthy servant,
recount the greatness of your wonders
and, seized with fear, in compunction cry out to you:

Great are you, O Lord, and wonderful your works,
and no word is adequate to sing the praise of your wonders.
Glory to you, O Lord, glory to you!

Μέγας ει Κύριε, και θαυμαστά τα έργα σου…

Guard your thoughts

The devils, being spiritual beings, direct most of their attacks against us at our minds, where our spirits are lodged. There they plant thoughts (λογισμοι in Greek) which are all but indistinguishable from our own thoughts, except for their objects.

Our spirits being regenerated and indwelt by the Holy Spirit present thoughts consistent with our new spiritual natures. They are good and pure, rational and just. They lead us from one good to another, if we follow them. But the thoughts planted by the evil one and his angels are the opposite. They add drag to our spiritual natures, try to bring us down, and lead us from one evil to another, sometimes by trickery, sometimes by flattery.

Here is our problem in these last times…


We have been taught (by the world) to believe that all our thoughts reflect who we are and what we ourselves desire, and that to follow them is not only natural but commendable. So, whatever thought comes to mind, whatever the devils plant there, be it an apparent good, some transitory pleasure or speculation, or something pitted against the truth of God’s revealed Word and which we know to be wrong (but only there, so the devils lisp in our mental ear), we think it right to follow, to try out, to experiment with, to experience.

In former days, for most Christian souls, thoughts were not accepted inwardly nor acted upon if they went against what the conscience knew was right. Whether traced back to the devils or merely to fleshly weakness, bad thoughts, imaginations and fantasies were rejected, boldly and as a matter of course. Now, however, with the lie that whatever we think is possible (and therefore, permissible), even souls that acknowledge Christ can justify themselves in following every and any whim.

“Go where no one has ever gone before, do what no one has ever done. Follow your dream, your vision. Life is a journey.”

Yes, my brothers. Life is at least a journey.

But it’s more than that.
It’s a pilgrimage from the “City of Destruction”
to the “Celestial City.”
John Bunyan was right.
Brethren, guard your thoughts!

Then one said to Him, “Lord, are there few who are saved?” And He said to them, “Strive to enter through the narrow gate, for many, I say to you, will seek to enter and will not be able. When once the Master of the house has risen up and shut the door, and you begin to stand outside and knock at the door, saying, ‘Lord, Lord, open for us,’ and He will answer and say to you, ‘I do not know you, where you are from,’ then you will begin to say, ‘We ate and drank in Your presence, and You taught in our streets.’ But He will say, ‘I tell you I do not know you, where you are from. Depart from Me, all you workers of iniquity.’” Luke 13:23-27 NKJV

Only One Miracle

Today on the feast of Theophany, at the banks of the Jordan River in the land of Israel, a miracle is said to occur. A cross is cast into the waters of the river, and the river changes direction: it flows upstream towards the sea of Galilee. The cross is retrieved by divers, the one lucky enough to actually bring it back up is considered blessed. Though many try, only one is the winner, a pattern we’re familiar with from nature. Many seeds attempt to conceive a child; only one succeeds.

(Yes, after the cross is retrieved, the river flows down stream again.)

Many people, even Christians, will doubt that this miracle of the river reversing its flow actually takes place, in spite of seeing it on film. They will say that it is either an illusion, or that it is a satanic counterfeit. The same sort of critics will say the same things about an even more impressive miracle, the appearance of the Holy Fire in the kouvouklion of the Church of the Resurrection in Jerusalem on the feast of Pascha (Orthodox Easter). I have no argument with them. Let them believe what they like.

Myself, I have never witnessed either miracle in person, but personally neither do I doubt that they occur. Before I ever heard of them, I believed. After I heard of them, the same. My faith was not planted or even strengthened by either of them. I rejoice that they occur and that the faith of others is planted or strengthened by knowing of them or witnessing them. Everyone has a custom path to walk with Jesus, and it is none of my business, except to help them walk it when I can.

Still, there are doubts about such miracles. In the past I have voiced such doubts about the validity—I should say, authenticity—of miracles that occur in other faith communities. I doubt the Marian apparitions to Catholics. I doubt the miracles that are televised daily among the Pentecostals. Do I doubt them because they are said to happen among people of other faiths? Well, to be honest, that’s how I started out, but with more experience and knowledge of the scriptures, when I doubt miracles, anyone’s, even those among the people of my own community, it’s because I’ve concluded that ‘God just doesn’t work that way.’ And, of course, I could be wrong, but I don’t think that my salvation depends on it either way.

How do I come to this conclusion? Again, from studying the scriptures, and even the Church fathers, though selectively, as they can be just as mistaken as I can be. If there is one principle in whose light a miracle can be examined, it is this: Is it an isolated occurrence that is otherwise purposeless, or is it in some fashion an expression of the unique miracle of the resurrection of Christ leading us back to Him? If a miracle is of the first type, then I have doubts or at least reservations; if it is of the second type, then I acknowledge and accept it. Either way, it is still not for me to judge for others.

For some, Christianity would be dull and featureless if it weren’t for miracles such as those that are witnessed publicly. For me, real miracles are happening daily, even momentarily, with a constant and dependable regularity. What kind of miracles am I talking about? Well, I suppose most people would say that life itself and the continuance of the universe is hardly a miracle, but for me that’s what they are. Beyond that, there are the miracles of human goodness: kindness, generosity, sympathy, forgiveness, repentance and faith. How can anyone have these without supernatural grace?

Either the world is full of miracles, or it is devoid of them; or perhaps they are, after all, just those rare occurrences when the usual operations of nature seem to be interrupted. One thing is sure, one miracle certain, or else all discussion of the subject grinds to a halt, reduced to mere speculation on magic. Only one miracle deserves the name, because forward and backward it is the source and meaning of all others that claim to be miracles. Only one miracle, the resurrection of Jesus Christ. All miracles in time before it draw substance from it, as do those that follow it in time.

The Lamb slain before the foundation of the world, through Him was the world made.

Preceding and drawing life from it: Aaron's rod changed, the waters of Egypt made blood and the other plagues, the parting of the Red Sea, the waters of Marah sweetened, the manna and quails provided in the wilderness, the water from the rock struck by Moses, the serpent image healing those stung by snakes, Balaam's ass speaking, the river Jordan parting, the walls of Jericho falling, the sun and moon standing still, the widow of Zarephath’s meal and her son raised from the dead, the descent of the Holy Fire on Mount Carmel for Elijah, the cure of Naaman’s leprosy, Elisha’s bones reviving the dead, the deliverance of the three holy youths in the fiery furnace, the safety of holy prophet Daniel among the lions, and Jonah’s survival in the belly of the sea monster: all expressions of the miracle to come.

The Lamb on the Throne who alone is worthy to open the seven seals of the scroll, in Him is the world remade.

Yes, there is really only one miracle, the resurrection of Jesus Christ.

Old Calendar Theophany

When You, O Lord were baptized in the Jordan
The worship of the Trinity was made manifest
For the voice of the Father bore witness to You
And called You His beloved Son.
And the Spirit, in the form of a dove,
Confirmed the truthfulness of His word.
O Christ, our God, You have revealed Yourself
And have enlightened the world, glory to You!

The Orthodox Church unfortunately follows two calendars, the Julian (Old Calendar) and the Gregorian (New Calendar). All of us follow the Old Calendar when it comes to Easter (Pascha), because despite disagreements within the Church about which calendar to use, we all want to celebrate the Lord's resurrection together. So Pascha and all the time leading up to it, Sarakostí (Lent), and all the time after it up to Pendekostí (Pentecost) are on the Old Calendar. The rest of the year, Orthodox churches in the Western World (Greek mainly, and American Orthodox in the lower 48) follow the New Calendar (the standard calendar reformed during the pontificate of Pope Gregory XIII) so as to be in line with the rest of Christendom. There are now 13 days between the Old and New Calendars, so Theophany (January 6) is observed on January 19 in terms of the standard calendar. Numerically speaking, more Orthodox Christians follow the Old Calendar, and most of the monasteries on Mount Athos use it also. There may be a very good reason for doing so. Two public miracles happen regularly every year in the land of Israel on Old Calendar dates: Pascha (Easter) and Theophany (January 6, but 19 as the world reckons it).

I have known about the public miracle that occurs on Pascha for many years: God sends a mysterious "fire" (phos, in Greek) in the Church of the Resurrection's kouvouklion (the actual tomb of Jesus, inside the church), which lights two bundles of candles that the patriarch takes with him into the tomb. He is searched ahead of time, and so is the tomb, by Israeli authorities, to make sure that there is nothing on him or in the kouvouklion that can be used to make fire. Then the patriarch is sealed into the tomb. After he prays, he waits until the fire appears and lights the candles, which he shoves through two apertures in the wall to worshippers waiting outside. When the Latins (Roman Catholics) took over the church during the Crusades and ejected the Orthodox patriarch, they tried to obtain this "holy fire" but were unable to. In the end they decided that the fire must be some kind of Greek trickery, and left it at that. The fire only appears on Orthodox Easter, except in those years when Orthodox and Western Easter fall on the same day. More about this miracle can be learned at this site.

The other public miracle, I think I heard tell from a Greek priest once, but I forgot all about it until today, when I noticed this post on Fr Milovan's blog, Again and Again. This miracle is the reversal of the flow of water in the Jordan River every year during the Great Blessing of the Waters that takes place on Old Calendar Theophany. Someone correct me if I'm wrong about this, but it seems that this happens only on Old Calendar January 6. As I wrote earlier, this gives one pause to consider whether there is something to the Old Calendar, or at least what it represents, after all. You can see a video of this miracle (or phenomenon, for those who don't believe in miracles) and read about it, by going to Fr Milovan's post, The Jordan Reversed Its Flow!

I just wanted to share this with my brother Christians, as another testimony that Jesus Christ is among still, just as He said He would be, ‘till the end of the age.’

Glory be to Him, to His Father and to the Holy Spirit. Amen.

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

You too can be Christ

Ferdinand Hodler, The Good Samaritan

Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit.
Matthew 28:19

Who is Christ talking to? Surely, not to me, I’m just an ordinary Christian layman. I can’t baptize anyone. He must be talking to the apostles and their successors, the bishops and priests of the Church.
I wouldn’t know how to make disciples. I hardly know how to be one myself. He can’t possibly be talking to me. This is the Church’s responsibility.

Well, then, who or what is the Church?

Everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock. The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had its foundation on the rock. But everyone who hears these words of mine and does not put them into practice is like a foolish man who built his house on sand. The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell with a great crash.
Matthew 7:24-27

Does it really matter, then, to ask who or what is the Church when we have words like these from the Son of God Himself? Can anyone put Christ’s words into practice for us? Can anyone be blamed if we ourselves do not put them into practice? We may not all be called to be apostles, that is, bishops, priests, deacons, evangelists and other professors of the Word. What is there left for us to do? Have all the important works been taken away and given to these men who are so much closer to Christ?

Jesus said: A man was going down from Jerusalem to Jericho, when he was attacked by robbers. They stripped him of his clothes, beat him and went away, leaving him half dead. A priest happened to be going down the same road, and when he saw the man, he passed by on the other side. So too, a Levite, when he came to the place and saw him, passed by on the other side. But a Samaritan, as he traveled, came where the man was; and when he saw him, he took pity on him. He went to him and bandaged his wounds, pouring on oil and wine. Then he put the man on his own donkey, brought him to an inn and took care of him. The next day he took out two denarii and gave them to the innkeeper. ‘Look after him,’ he said, ‘and when I return, I will reimburse you for any extra expense you may have.’

Which of these three do you think was a neighbor to the man who fell into the hands of robbers?

The expert in the law replied, ‘The one who had mercy on him.’

Jesus told him, ‘Go and do likewise.’
Luke 10:30-37


So, we are not bishops, priests and deacons. They’ve been given the all important work of going out and making disciples of all nations, and baptizing them. That’s not our call. We can’t be expected to go out of our way and do such extraordinary things. But what about the people that we don’t go out to, but who come to us, or who are placed in our path?

The Church fathers take the parable of the Good Samaritan, quoted above, and they tell us some of its meanings. They don’t tell us who the priest and the Levite are, but they do tell us the identities of the Samaritan, the traveler, the innkeeper, and the inn.

The Samaritan, they say, is Christ. The traveler beaten and robbed and left on the road to die is every man in need of salvation. The inn is the Church, and the innkeeper is the ministers of the Church.

Christ is he who does not pass by on the other side, avoiding the inconvenience of helping the wounded man placed in his path. We may not be innkeepers—clergy—that is true. But anyone of us can minister to the one God has placed in our path.

You may not be a priest or Levite either.

But you too can be Christ.

Both new and old

In our Christian life we have to strike a balance between following the tradition and creating it. Those who only follow tradition stifle the Spirit in them, pruning the buds and never harvesting the fruit. Those who only create tradition, uproot the tree altogether. But to follow tradition as well as create it is to be the ‘tree that is planted by water streams, yielding its fruit in season, its leaves never fading’ (Psalm 1:3). This is what Christ expects of us, what indeed happens to us as we follow Him. We are transformed into the steward ‘who brings out from his storeroom things both new and old’ (Matthew 13:32).

A Christian brother wrote, ‘Many years ago I was at a symposium on “Youth and the Church,” and a sociology professor had been asked to speak. He said that the church could play an important role in helping youth to adjust to the demands and values and mores of society. I asked him what if society’s values were wrong, and the youth were revolting against them. He got very emphatic, and said “Youth must adjust!” I almost expected him to throw up his right arm in a Nazi salute.’

I hope the professor's emphatic response was just a careless enthusiasm for his own ideas (such it often is), and that he did not intend to circumscribe so closely the idealism of youth. This is, unfortunately, how some in the Church feel, that youth (indeed anyone) must ‘adjust to the demands and values and mores of society.’ By this, of course, they mean the status quo of churchly life. These same people are adamant that one must consult one’s ‘spiritual father’ in everything, before making a single move in one’s life. For them, an act, even a thought, done without
‘authorization’ is at best foolish and at worst brazen pride. The independent spirit, to them, is pure sin. But I don’t think so.

Christ does not turn us into robots. He did not come to destroy tradition, but He frees us from its stranglehold. He calls us to follow Him, but that call always includes our free will and implies the right use of it—something that requires independence. If His call and our following does anything, it transforms us into creatures capable of, and desirous of, living for ever with Him. It charges us with an independence of spirit that even angels do not share.

Only the independent spirit can undo its will and enter into the life of the Holy Triad, where three wills are one will from eternity, without confusion, without disorder, but in total freedom. Often what shows as a submissive will is a mercenary subservience, brazen pride concealed under an outward humility in order to reign in splendor.

The Holy Tradition is the life of the Holy Triad as lived by the Church throughout the ages, and every cell in the Body of Christ is both nourished by it and nourishes it, every father is a son, every son a father, and like its outward sign, an Orthodox temple, the walls once white and empty fill up with ikons, generation after generation. To follow tradition as well as create it is to be the ‘tree that is planted by water streams, yielding its fruit in season, its leaves never fading’ (Psalm 1:3), and we can ‘know the tree by its fruit’
(Matthew 7:16).

Monday, January 17, 2011

Great grace

…cannot be possessed in peace because many conflicts arise against it. The more grace a man has, the more the devil attacks him. But a man should not on that account stop being guided by his grace, because the harder the battle, the greater will be his crown, if he wins…

Someone said to him, ‘I am often tempted by the worst kind of temptation, and I have often asked the Lord to take it away from me—and He does not take it away.’ Brother Giles answered him, ‘The better the armor with which a king arms his soldiers, the more bravely he wants them to fight.’

I started here

Back in Romeoville, Illinois, in 1964 maybe, or a little later, skimming through a Reader's Digest issue, I stopped at this full-page ad by Religion in American Life. It grabbed me. Why? Because the boy in the picture looked about as close to me as you could get, skinny, brownish hair, sitting like that lookin' up… that was me! Well, not really, but I carefully tore out the page and stuck it in whatever book I was reading at the time.

By then, we were not a religious family. My mom stayed up and prayed way into the night while she listened to all-night radio (sometimes I'd get up in the middle of the night and keep her company, it was good music), but none of us went to church anymore. Well, I did, sort of. My steady girlfriend was a Roman Catholic, and so, for a date, I used to accompany her to mass, and then go over to her house to hang out with her widowed mom and two sisters. Back then, there was nothing to do as a teenager, no drive-ins, nothing at all in this small town of a few thousand people, just ice skating on Lake Shirley (man-made mega-pond) or exploring the forest with my best friend Ed. Sheesh! Marijuana didn't even come to town till the year I left for college… to another small town of 5,000 people even further in the boonies, Carlinville. For me at college, a date with my steady girlfriend was lying side-by-side in a mown hayfield looking up at stars on a clear night! No hanky-panky! And then, stopping for a donut or two at a local bakery that opened at 4 a.m. on the way back to campus.

As I was saying, we weren't a religious family (except for mom). But something in me kept tugging, ‘why are we here?’…‘Is there really a God, or is this all a bad dream?’ Somehow, I kept going back to this page torn out of a cheap magazine.

I've kept it all these years, maybe because it accompanied me as I took the first few steps… venturing inside a Catholic church with my girlfriend, finding the old family bible and starting to read it (at Proverbs!) and taking notes, starting to write poetry with spiritual themes, exploring the Eastern religions… Well, yes, I did take a few wrong turns, and that continued on through college. But it was there that I found my first Christian friends, kids like me who were struggling with issues of life and death (to us), and who tolerated me as a ‘weirdo’ who wanted to hang around them and do InterVarsity Fellowship things even though I was (as a lapsed Catholic), at very best, only an ‘almost Christian.’

Just a reminder that everything and everyone has humble beginnings, no matter how notorious they become in middle age…

A ramble on Psalms

The biblical book of Psalms is really an amazing book. Tehillim, ‘praises’ is what the book is called in Hebrew. Mizmor, ‘psalm’ (Psalm 3) is what an individual psalm is called, along with a few other terms, such as shiggayon ‘wild, passionate song’ (Psalm 7), miktam (Psalm 16), tefillah ‘prayer’ (Psalm 17), shir ‘song’ (Psalm 30), and maskil ‘didactic poem’ (Psalm 32).

In the process of typing the psalms into my new blog Jerusalem Psalter, it was impressed on me how repetitive the psalms are in terms of their content. The same words are used over and over again, even the same themes recur with almost monotonous regularity—something I had never noticed before, reading and praying them day by day. For in reading the psalms and praying them, one doesn’t notice these details: one knows only the Lord before whom we are presenting ourselves. ‘Lay aside all earthly cares, that you may receive the King of all…’

This repetition of words and themes makes the book of Psalms in Hebrew, the Tehillim, to easiest and best place to start in the Old Testament, if you want to begin learning the biblical language. What surprised me most when beginning to pray the psalms in Hebrew was the simplicity, saying much with few words. In this, it resembles classical Chinese more than any other language I’ve studied. Hebrew words are ‘thought pictures’ in almost the same way, and a single particle of speech has immense freedom to express relationships between ideas that any modern language requires a dozen different words to achieve.

Aside from the linguistic notices, I also became aware of how warlike, aggressive and even vengeful many of the verses of the psalms are. You notice this when reading them as a text, but when reading them as scripture and as prayer—I don’t know why—they don’t affect you the same way. As Christians, and probably as Jews, we pray these words and inside of us we ‘just know’ somehow the movements of the spirit within us that correspond to the words, without taking them literally. There is a quality in the psalms, too, that corresponds only to a similar quality in us, that of the willingness and fact of struggle.

Before I entered the world of men and had to deal with life as it comes (I mean, in contrast to being a child at home, or even a college student), the psalms meant nothing to me. I knew Psalm 23 by heart in the King James version because of its use everywhere, especially at funerals. Beyond that, if I read the psalms at all, they were just biblical passages with no special significance. When I ran across verses that I’d heard in church or in bible movies, it garnished a little more of my interest, but an ‘academic’ interest in the psalms, or in the whole Bible per se, is not what the Book is for.

I had been picked on, bullied, most of my childhood years, and even in high school, for various reasons. For one thing, I never learned to fight, and growing up in inner city Chicago in the 1950’s, well, what can I say? Luckily I had a friend or two along the way who stood by me as guardian angel. In junior high it was a boy whose last name was Moses. In high school it was a youth whose last name was Yglesia (Spanish for ‘church’). What more could I ask for? With these two friends, I hardly had anything to fear from bullies, though I sometimes got into trouble when I was alone.

It was in young manhood, though, that persecution became real, and fierce. You wouldn’t have expected that. After all, this was modern late 20th century America, and by then I was living in Oregon, the ‘paradise of the hippies’ and other peaceable types. But did I find a safe niche among this group? Not on your life! Instead, I was in the working class, rubbing shoulders with guys who never outgrew their 6th grade bully mentality, one in particular was him we called ‘Jim Australia.’

Why he got this name, who knows? He wasn’t an Aussie, but I gather he was an ex-con, he had served time in prison. Some say he’d been in Australia and got into trouble there. I wouldn’t be surprised if that were true, but I think his appearance conformed to what some folks thought an Australian should look like. He was a big man, of stocky build, had a full bushy beard and head of dark hair, a Scot or Irishman by ancestry, and he loved to pick a fight, and he always seemed angry. We never saw him smile, not once.

This ‘gentleman’ worked in the last furniture factory in Portland, where I worked. He was probably in his mid to late 30’s and I, a boy of 24 years who had just met the Lord and gotten saved. I had been working in a century-old furniture factory in a rural town where the other employees were unbelievably savage, cruel, mean and immoral. Since I wouldn’t cheat on my wife and do drugs, I quickly became a pariah there. The managers liked me, though, because of my careful work, and they gave me jobs in the shop that isolated me from these others as much as possible. It was working there that I gave my life to the Lord, as I have recounted elsewhere.

But I couldn’t take it anymore and began praying for a job where I could be with at least one other Christian. After a car wreck (it was my fault), and some other hardships, I decided that I had to leave small town America and go to the ‘big city’ to find a better job. I hadn’t stopped praying either. The prayer was answered when I found work at Portland’s last large furniture factory. There I was trained in every woodworking skill by Philip, a man 32 years my senior, who was that ‘one other Christian’ I had been praying for. But nothing is ever as easy as you think. With this blessing came also a warfare.

Jim Australia hated me from the first day he laid eyes on me, and before long he was actually trying to kill me, or at least ‘accidentally’ put me in harm’s way. He had been mean to others before, but he fastened his hate on me like a magnet. Once he pushed me into a bin of wood—that was gentle. Another time he aimed and threw a claw hammer at my head from a dozen feet away. God knows how I escaped injury. Another time he shoved me out the door of the bus as it stopped to drop us off at the factory, on an icy day sent me sprawling into the traffic of the adjoining street, and just after a truck had passed. This man meant trouble. He even discovered the route I walked to church, and waited in gangways to ambush me.

It was at this time of my life that I began reading the psalms, and as these things happened to me, the psalms started taking on life for me, started attaching themselves to the moments of my daily life. At first, it was the bad things that drew meaning from the psalms, but quickly my spirit began to discover all the blessings in these same divine songs. The Lord started teaching me and ‘surrounding me with songs of deliverance’ and I began to compose music and sing the very songs that were printed in my Jerusalem Bible, whether waiting for the bus, or at home, or walking down the street.

Without realizing it, I was starting to live in the Word, and the words of the psalms began to become my wisdom, my protection, my shield, my rock of safety—yes, here it begins! What David sang was becoming my song, and what David was, an anointed of the Lord, a king in His heavenly Kingdom, well, that is what the Father wants all of us to be. When we pray the psalms we step into King David’s shoes. What? But we’re not worthy? Of course we aren’t, I never said we were, but what God wants for us outweighs all our doubts and even all our faith, all our criticisms and all our enthusiasm.

‘Pause awhile and know that I am God, exalted among the nations, exalted over the earth!’ (Psalm 46)

Glory to You, O God, glory to You!

Again, discipleship

Thanks to brother Hilarius for these quotes from Bonhoeffer's ‘other book’ Life Together…

It is not simply to be taken for granted that the Christian has the privilege of living among other Christians. Jesus Christ lived in the midst of his enemies. At the end all his disciples deserted him. On the Cross he was utterly alone, surrounded by evildoers and mockers. For this cause he had come, to bring peace to the enemies of God. So the Christian, too, belongs not in the seclusion of a cloistered life but in the thick of foes. There is his commission, his work. “The Kingdom is to be in the midst of your enemies. And he who will not suffer this does not want to be of the Kingdom of Christ; he wants to be among friends, to sit among roses and lilies, not with the bad people but the devout people. O you blasphemers and betrayers of Christ! If Christ had done what you are doing who would ever have been spared?” (Luther).
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God' people must dwell in far countries among the unbelievers, but it will be the seed of the Kingdom of God in all the world.
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…it [the gathering together] will finally occur visibly at the end of time when the angels of God "shall gather together his elect from the four winds, from one end of heaven to the other" (Matt. 24:31). Until then, God's people have remained scattered, held together solely in Jesus Christ, having become one in the fact that, dispersed among unbelievers, they remember Him in the far countries.

So between the death of Christ and the Last Day it is only by a gracious anticipation of the last things that Christians are privileged to live in visible fellowship with other Christians. It is by the grace of God that a congregation is permitted to gather visibly in this world to share God's Word and sacrament. Not all Christians receive this blessing… Yet what is denied them as an actual experience they seize upon more fervently in faith…